Weaknesses and faults

We all have them. I definitely have them. I have been realizing that right now is the time to do something about some of them.

One of my weaknesses is being too isolated, not getting involved, letting my fears distance me from other people (is that all one or 3?). Some of that is just the way I am. I am not outgoing, and don’t have many friends. That is part of my personality and not necessarily a bad thing. What is bad is when I use that as an excuse to not obey God, to reach out to other people that I know I should, or not step up for service.

At the PWOC conference, there was a specific incident when I disobeyed God. It was during a worship session. I was standing next to this girl from our group that I do not know very well at all. I felt that I should reach over and touch her, to hug her or just pat her shoulder or something. I felt it so strongly that I knew it was God saying it. I ignored it. I thought, “I don’t know her, she will think I am crazy.” Later I found out that girl is going through some things and needed to feel loved and specifically had said to someone that she just needed to be hugged or something. I wanted to cry. I realized I didn’t just ignore a weird thought; I disobeyed God and missed a chance to bless someone. I did go to her later and hug her and apologize. But that doesn’t change the fact that I ignored God and let my weakness get in the way of a call and a need. I am sure that is not the only (or worst time) I have ever done that.

The decision that I was recently praying about is another example of my weakness. I was given the opportunity to join my local PWOC board at conference. I had that same opportunity back in May and turned it down without even asking God. I immediately said that it was not something I am qualified to do and out of my comfort zone. I am very glad that God gave me a second chance to step up and serve Him. This time I prayed and I accepted the position. I am now on the board, in a position that has me speak in front of the whole PWOC, to be outgoing and friendly to all people coming through the door. Am I out of my comfort zone? Oh yes, definitely. But, this is a chance to serve God and other women, and hopefully, help them feel loved and encourage them to return to PWOC where God can touch them and use them also. Am I qualified? Only through the grace and strength of God. But it is a call and I finally answered Him in the right way. Yes, Lord, here I am. Send me!

Now I am not trying to say this is my only fault (ha! I wish). I have just been shown so much lately (and these are only 2 examples) of how we all need to step up and do what we are called to do for God and others. The many recent references to Isaiah 6 amaze me! The time to step up is now. God is calling ALL of us. We can’t let our faults and weaknesses stop us-God knows them all and wants to use us anyway!